FACEBOOK VS. ANONYMITY
Do you ever have those times in life where you just want to be a hermit? I do. Work can be stressful. Family can be stressful. Friends can be stressful…or the lack thereof for any of those three. Sometimes you find yourself…if you are like me…a little bit sad…or close to tears a lot and you just need some alone time.
Not too long ago I was at a conference. As I sat there sometimes with tears running down my face…I realized that the girl I was before husband or children was still deep inside me and she needed to be listened to. It wasn’t anything really huge….just some decisions I had made as a young teen that I felt hadn’t been fulfilled, yet.
I the midst of my very busy life I had forgotten about that girl…the one who needed to be heard. As I drove home from the conference I wondered if anyone really knew me. I felt lost and like so much of life had passed without being able to be me.
What I’m realizing is that life is a journey and sometimes you can walk someone else’s journey. I had to many desires as a young girl that have been unfulfilled. To be fair…we all dream of what life will be like and for the most part…life doesn’t turn out the way we’d planned. I think maybe God sits with a smile on HIs face sometimes. Proverbs 16:9 says The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.
For me – in conclusion – I left facebook today. I have tried for the last week, but because of some games I play I had a hard time staying gone. 😀 It hasn’t been an easy decision for me. I have 4 of my 6 children who are long distance and I’ve always thought I would keep facebook in order to know what was going on with them. But I found myself sad and depressed watching their lives go on without me…so I need space right now. I need to find that little girl and nurture her. My kids have my phone number and e-mail and they know where to get ahold of me; but it seems to make little difference right now. Maybe someday. But for now…let’s go on a journey together … to find out who I (and you) am (are).
Proverbs 16:9 “The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.”